Chance Growing Up & Regrets

February 14 · 0 comments

Have you ever just been minding your own business and then WHAM! get hit with some astounding piece of information?  No? Yes?

That happened to me earlier this morning.  I was brushing my teeth and letting my mind wander.  I was thinking about this month in general and dates and how old my kids were.  Why I was thinking about this, I haven’t a clue.  I just know as I was thinking about Chance going to be 20 months old, my brain started doing some calculations and that’s when the information hit me.  CHANCE WILL BE 2 YEARS OLD IN 4 MONTHS!!  Wasn’t it just a few weeks ago I was planning his first birthday party?  I specifically remember doing it at the last minute and hating myself for not having anything planned out sooner.  I felt like a horrible mom.  And now I guess I’m making up for it by spazzing out about his birthday several months in advance.

I don’t think it’s just guilt that’s doing this, but the pure disbelief that he’s going to be two already. I mean I know he wasn’t born yesterday, no, that was Evelyn; he was born the day before yesterday.  Seriously though.  I can’t believe it’s been almost two years since I brought him home from the hospital.  Where has time gone?

Just to reflect on this revelation and the OMG-ness of it all.  He went from this:

Chance, a few days old


To this:

Chance riding on his mini 4-wheeler


::Sigh::  My little boy is growing up so fast.  Pretty soon, he’s going to be old enough to start Pre-K and oh man.  Too fast, slow down.  Time, just freeze for now and let me hold him while he still needs me and fits in my arms.

As a personal side note: I regret not spending time with him when he was Evelyn’s age.  Those first few months were so critical and I will never get them back.  I was too busy playing a game on my computer (Dakota and I both were) and we ignored him.  We are doing our best to make up for it, but time needs to slow down so we can give him all the love we didn’t express back then.  I pray that he knows we love him and we always will…

If you don’t get anything else out of this post, please get this:  love on your child every opportunity you have.  I know when they are first born it seems as though they aren’t all that exciting.  They eat, poop, sleep, and cry.  But get into the habit of spending time with them and always being there when they need you, no matter how insignificant it is.  Though it doesn’t mean much to you, it means a lot to them at that point in time and it adds up as they get older.  For their sake and yours, please hold on to them.  Cherish those precious moments.

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